Mom sure is pissed off at me since she found about the whole thing about me failing several classes. I wish I could say that it's all over, but it's not. You see I now have no vechile...well, for the time being I should say. Nontheless, I now am unable to go anywere with out her consent or her assistance to bring me to were I need be. Aside from that she is constantly bitchin about how I screwed up...it's so damn irritating. Then agian I can't say I blame her, but still it aggitates me.
-sigh-
On a lighter note, this coming Wednesday I'm going to the movies with some of friends to watch the premere of Spiderman 2! -applause is heard in backround- Yeah, I'll be going with the now disbanded puppet team. It's gonna be great. We are planning on watching the movie after church, basically during the time we use to have puppets. Roughly 7-9 pm. I can hardly wait. But this event may be the last time I can actually hang out with Lindsay, Stacey, and Holly. -cries to his lonesome self- The Burts will surely be missed. Especially Stacey. ;_;
One more thing before I go, I just ran into miss Erika about 45 minutes ago and she asked me to help with her movie project. She had mentioned to me about it the day I came back from my trip. I have a fairly important part in the story so, I'm really hyped up about the entire thing. The only problem with this thing is...well, there is two actuallly. One being my mother: she has vandetta against me, so I may not be able to go...I just hope I can. And it doesn't help the fact that I won't have a vechile anymore. Secondly the Burt's leave on the following day, or even that day! So I may want to say goodbye to them one last time.
The crap I get myself into. It sucks walrus penis, but I must admit I deserve every bit of it...so I can't complain I guess. Anyways enough of my sulking, it's time to get back to what I was doing in UTPA in the fist place. Until next time blog.
As I think I have mentioned in my previous entry I said I was embarking a on a four thousand some odd miled trip to New Hampshire and back. I had left on May 28th, I believe, and I arrived on June 18th. Either ways I left with my church puppet team and we all drove up there in a large van. The 11 of us first went to Washington DC and we saw all sorts of stuff: Jefferson Monument, Lincoln Memorial, Washington Monument, World War II memorial, Korean War memorial, Vietnam War Memorial, well you get the idea. It sure was snazzy. You would be surprised how many people walk around without thier shirts on. Men and women! That's right women! What has our country come to!?
From there we all went to New York and check out the Statue of Liberty. It's a lot smaller than what I remember, I keep thinking it's size of a like a large sky scrapper. The Texas bank on Nolana and 10th street is probably bigger than that thing, and if not just barely shorter. Either ways we couldn't go inside due to the fact that they (state government) were remodeling it. We took a ferry to get there, it was kind of cool.
From there I went to...New Hampshire. We stayed at some cabin in the middle of a mountain range and a vast forest. It was really pretty there during the day lots of wild flowers you know but creepy as hell at night. Since there were no lights at all it would be pitch black. But I was told by the people who had stayed at that cabin, that many people practice wicca during the late hours of the night. "And if you see any lights in the woods, don't go near them..." that's what they told me. In fact while we stayed there I remember seeing some solitary lights out a this one specific mountain, which I later found was 5 miles away, I figured they were withces. That sort of scared the crap out of me in a way. I started getting all these ideas that a group of devil worshippers were gonna raid the cabin we were at and sacrifice us to the devil or something. I later told the people I was with what I thought I saw and they all laughed at me and said I have a wild imagination. Losers.
From there we went a bit south and entered New York again and checked out the Niagra Falls. Every time I go there it gets just that much cooler. It was really fun. We walked along the american falls and went through tunnels behind the Horseshoe falls (canadian). We then took a ferry were the falls fell specifically...very nice, exciting to say the least. We just did a lot there. The following day that we stayed at Niagra we checked out the Canadian side and walked around. Fun stuff.
We ended our trip in Tennessee, this is after we went through Ohio and Indiana a couple times. Here in Tennessee, we checked out perhaps the longest cave in the world, Mammoth Cave. Explorers have found over 300 some odd miles of the cave and yet they still haven't found it all yet! I couldn't believe it. The cave it self was OK, not too spectacular In my opinion, but still fun to go through it and what not. There were these cave crickets that just looked creepy as hell. They sort of reminded me of a fusion of a cocharoach and beetle...they were disgusting.
That was my trip in one hell of nutshell, keep in mind that we were performing almost everywere we stayed. In general I had a blast and I will most definetly miss being on the puppet team, since I'm quiting after a couple more meetings. Puppets are great and all, but it's time to move on. Now I plan on focusing full time on school and getting a good job so that I can see what the hell I can do for my self when I plan on getting a career.
I tired of typing and I'm tired of sitting here. I have been typing for the past 30 minutes and my but is kind of numb...hahahaha!!! Well, I'll go for now.
No, but in all seriousness I am unable to think of anything that I have done but I can sure mention some things about other people. Nathan has been couped up in the house forever...he doesn't go out, at least not very open. Everytime I am invited to something I try to bring him along some way or another so that he doesn't feel depressed in the house alone. I had visited them early today and I had founded that Mathew has already finished with high school and his graduation cermony is this Saturday. I'm not going to miss it.
I had just realized that I was lying when I said that I didn't do anything for the past week or so. Last Saturday I believe, I had gone to the graduation of two of my good friends...Lindsay and Josh. They were both to suppose to have graduated last year but they were behind in thier studies (they're home schoolers). Nontheless the graduation ceremony was odd since there were only 9 students in total. I found this event interesting in the sense that everyone had a speech they just had to give. It was really nice and well done. Very touching to say to the least. I cried throughout most of it, hahahaha...memories of my graduation (well, sort of).
Going back to everyone else...Mathew is graduating, that's were I ended right? Either ways I congratulated him today and he seemed happy that he was graduating. Good for him. I think I'll get him something, that is if I can get ahold of any cash. *smug*
Oh yeah Vince's father has moved in with him and he looks terrible! Peter (vince's dad) is constantly on oxygen...very sad. He has trouble breathing, but aside from that he seems to be ok. Peter jokes around a whole lot, up to the point that it's not even funny...kind of like me n.n I think Peter moved down here with vince to keep away from the cold whether and what not.
I have mantained contact with Andrea via email. She seems alright I though she had already gone home, but she is still in Texas...Dallas I think. She had mentioned that she was going to visit some family in the area before going back home to Georgia. Now that I am still talking about family. I have set up some arrangemnts to meet up with my father and other members of the family in DC and New Hampshire. I hope all goes well, it would be interesting so see my family meet my puppet team.
I think that roughly handles what I have done for the past week or so. I'll write agian on Saturday afternoon. That post that I put will be the last one I will put until late June assuming that I don't die or that all electronical devices are destroyed or something. Heaven forbid either one happening. Well, I suppose I shall end here for the time being...crap it's 12:25am. Shit I'm going to bed!
They had mentioned to me how I had grown my hair and what not. Yeah long hair is cool that's for sure -grin-. Aside form them I saw Blu just the other day (Thursday I think, maybe Friday) I was gonna do my daily runs at PanAm to do mom's movie editing when I ran into her, Blu that is. Holy crap we like talked for like 4 and half hours! She mainly was wondering what I was doing for the past 3 or so months. She seems to be just fine...but then I wonder. I didn't know she split up with Jared! Some people are just don't hit it off very well...haha that kind of hits home with me...hahaha!!
My love 'interest' left home for Georgia this morining...I'll miss her, but at least I she has my number, email, and I have hers. She can probably be my second pen pal, heck who knows. I invited Andrea before she left to Sonic with some of my friends from church and we just ate, played vollyball, you know fun stuff! We then left to thier house and watched a movie and had fun...well, I had fun.
Now, that my fun is all over I have to begin preparing myself for my upcoming trip with the puppet team this summer. We are gonna havea hell of a road trip, we're driving to Canada! That's right, Canada, I dunno how we'll do it but it's gonna be blast. We're gonna stop in DC, Conneticutt, New York City, New Hamshire, then Canada. The whole trip is gonna last a little under 3 weeks. Wow, I can hardly wait. Hopfully my puppet team just might be able to meet up with my father and my family in DC.
Hitting a little closer to home, Nathan has just told me that he is trying to get a new job as a bank teller, he also mentioned that they make 8 bucks an hours (starting off) hell, to top it off they get "benefits" what that means to me is a mystery. Nonetheless I wish the best for the big goober. As for me I have a secure job with the Monitor when I get back from my trip in late June. A big thumbs up from Vince with this one. Thanks!
Sure everything sound all peachy and grand, but a huge problem has happened to mom and myself. My mother is constantly worried about these 'turn of events'. She keeps changing all her bank accounts in joint with me, or in other words...putting them in my name. She keeps telling me "it's just in case something happens to me." It's creeping me out, it's like she is preparing for herself to die or something. I dunno what to do. Whatever may happen, I know it is God's will...I just might agree with it.
Wow, I thinking about it so much has happened in the past week. Well, for starters my older cousin Gabriel is in San Antonio right now. Yeah I called him the other day and he is doing fine. I believe he said, that he was gonna stay until August that sucks for him. From what I understood he has been stationed there to finish some classes in his medical 'degree' for the military. It must suck for his wife(he got married back in Feb.), since she is at home all alone on the other side of the country. I plan on visiting him in a couple of weeks.
The girl that i just so happen to like, Andrea, has been having problems with this one guy that I know. I didn't know the whole story, but from what I understood this guy was making passes to her and that he tried to give her some kises. The guy works fast! Unlike me who works at a snail's pace. Not only that the guy has been stalker and driving by Andrea's 'house'(Andrea is staying at Linday's house) and peering through the windows trying to get glimpse at her. When I heard this, I had determined that this guy is a crazed, desparate, horny stalking bastard! The dude has been writing to her with all these letters and what not. Andrea asked her/my friend Lindsay for advice. Lindsay didn't know what to say so they talked to Linday's parents and they said that they should talk to me. Why me? Hell, if I know. They told me all this crap you know so I decided to talk to the guy myself.
I talked to the guy the following day (which was yesterday), I simply told him to back off...nicely of course. Well, it all ended well...heck the guy ended up apologizing to me he thought that I was Andrea's boyfriend. The irony I thought. Either way I called Andrea and told her that I talked to her stalker and what not...blah blah he's not gonna mess with ya and all that jazz. Either ways all is good and I'm gonna take her to VIBE on Thursday, in which I plan on taking Nathan since he hasn't gone in while and he can meet her too.
I gonna invite her to the beach next week, but I plan on invited tons of other people too so she doesn't feel all wierd. Either ways I think she'll say yes cause I have been talking to Lindsay and what not plus she (Lindsay) gives me the thumbs up. Things are going good. Yup yup
Mom, got a job with a government agency called FIMA they will literary take her no matter were she goes: Washington DC, England, Spain, Italy, Brazil, New York, and among others. If she chooses to leave the state, I more than likely will go with 'her' so I can still recieve some sort of financial support. I'm not to crazy aobut the idea, but at the same time I would like to move. It's time to move on...I've been in Texas too long. I have lots a good memories here and some bad ones too, but I'm not complaining. Either way wish me luck.
Well, that's it.
Besides my 'love-life', I have beeen faring myself just fine. Finals are just around the corner and I can't wait till it's over. Despite all the work I need to do for the next few weeks, to prepare for my trip, I need to study like a fiend for school. My rhetoric class...is a royal pain. I have like 3 essays and research paper due in like a week and half! And to think I still have another 3 classes!
Mom, just came back from her trip not today, which I had failed to mention on past posts. She had left to some place somewere (notice, I didn't pay attention) to get her scuba diving license. Why the hell she needs it is beyond me. Nontheless she is back and she can't stop talking about. Speaking about mom, this is her last semester in school and I believe she graduates this summer. Congrats for her...I still have a bit to go.
Now that I'm on the topic of parents, my father got injured in Kuwait about a month ago. I barely found about this a week ago when he emailed from a hospital in New York. I didn't know what he was doing in New York, but he said he was doing just fine and that he didn't "lose any arms or legs". He also mentioned to me that he is not going overseas anymore and that he plans on going back to the civilian work place. Good for him.
That just about sums it here for me. I haven't done much for myself except go watch Vol.2 to KILL BILL which was absolutely terrible. I mean this thing was boring as hell...damn it sucked. I haven't seen the first one, but I know it had tons of fighting in it...this one on the other hand had hardly any fighting. Sheesh that should be a crime.
Anyways, enough of this crap. I'm going to bed, I have school tommorrow.
What else, what else...lately Nathan has been all gooberish. I dunno, I think he really needs to go out. This 'life style' that he has must suck, he truly doesn't have a social life. I mean I though I didn't have one but truly he has less than I do. Not just that but I think he is also having some girl problems with the fact that he is too 'jumpy' to how a girl reacts to him. I beleive he told me that he sounds, "desperate". But in all truth he is. He has all the symptoms...I've seen it. -shakes head- I'm talking like I'm some behavioral psychologist.
Justin is absolutely estatic about the 'love of his life'...man if he saw this he would probably smack me! hahaha!! I'm proud for him. He is definetly infactuated with this girl, I just hope that he doesn't goof up and start doing things with out head. As for me -shrugs- I dunno...I can definetly use some attention, but it's not my first priority. I'm just trying to get by school, you know? But like I said... to have some significant other couldn't hurt.
-sigh-
Well, I think I'll stop...it's 5 till midnight and I'm not a night person so I think I shall crash here for the meantime. G'night.
At some point during the weekend I went out to see the movie Walking Tall, it was fairly good, funny too. But the story that comes with the movie sucks. My friends calls me up and says he wants to watch a movie that starts in like 20 minutes. It was the end of the day so I figured, "Hell, why not." But before I wanted to go I just wanted to throw out the garbage. When I do this, I come back to the house and I realize that I locked myself out. What an idiot! It was like 10pm and my mom wasn't coming home until 1am...luckily I had my cell phone on me at least and I called my friend to pick me up and what not. We go and watch the movie and I tell him not to bring me home since I figure by the time I walk home(I live close to the movie theatre), mom would be there. To my dismay...she didn't get home until 5:00 in the freakin' morning! It didn't help that I couldn't call her since her phone was off! >:0
As the saying goes, "bad trips can make great stories".
Then on Sunday night I went out to eat with the girl that I like. Have you know we didn't go alone, we also went with her younger sister and her sister's best friend(she drove them there). Either way the four of us had a good time talking about all sorts of crap and what not. I think we stayed at the restaraunt for like two hours! It was like 11:30 when I got home that day.
Aside from that, like I said all I did was bundle and bundle of homework. It's all good, since most of them are the last assignments I have to do for those classes anyways. When I'm through with them this week...I'm going to register for classes at panam. Wohoo! Then my all my frustrations will be over.
Well, I better get off now and grab nathan so we can work on our take home Goverment Test that's due to tommorrow! Toodles!
I got the game...on Saturday morning? I don't remember...but either way I haven't gotten to play it much since I have been gone nearly the entire weekend. On Saturday I had to work, which ends around 7-8 pm, then when I got home I had to help mom transfer some of her chemistry equipment: from PanAm to her lab on the island. That sucked! I didn't get home until late that day...something like 2:00 in the morning. I almost forgot to mention that I worked at a garage sale for about 11 hours this day too!!
Then on Sunday I had to go to church until 1:00 in the afternoon...which is fine, but afterwards I left immediatly to a puppet trip that I had nearly forgotten about. We drove for about 6 hours until we reach some small town called Oakville, my apartment complex probably had more people living in it than that town. Either way, we did our show in the church and I earned about $180 dollars...not bad.
On the way back home, I got to talk to this really snazzy girl on the puppet team that I have had my eyes on for a short while now. She, is truly the only person of the opposite sex that I would think about having a relationship with. We were talking, you know then all of a sudden when we get to the town of Falfurias, there is this freak storm from hell. The driver had to stop since it was raining so hard, that he couldn't see past the hood of the car! Scary! It then began hailing really bad. Just trying to talk to the person next to me I had to yell over the sound. We finally decided to keep going and when we did so I had spotted some cars that were floating down some streets...bad stuff.
Due to the storm it took us an additional 3:00 hours to get home, so I didn't sleep until 5:00 in the morning. I looked like crap. So, yeah now here I am in school now typing my little heart until my next class starts. Which now when I come to think about it...I have a test. I gotta go!
Not only that I have to keep myself on my toes with school. I would like to go back to Pan Am...STCC sucks. There is absolutely nothing to do. Once I'm done with classes I drop nathan home or bring him to work, then I go to work. My routine has really sucked ass lately. I get home about 8:00 every day...somedays like at 11:00. I'm constantly tired and I never want to get out anymore.
So, on my spare time I visit go-gaia, which is actually entertaining. I have met some interesting people. Which reminds me. If you scroll back down to the past two(I believe) posts, I had mentioned about a girl that I met. This girl is from Novia Scotia, it just so happens that her Grandmother lives down here in the valley. I met this girl on go-gaia and she just so happens to visit her family down here for spring break! Holy shit, I was thinking. And to top it off, her grandmother goes to my church. It felt like God was waving a flag in front of my head saying, "Hey moron over here!"
I had mentioned it more in detail with Nathan...absolutely amazing. She was awesome and all, still keep contact with her, but no way in hell I wish to start any relationship with her. Speaking of women...nevermind.
Damn, it's like 12:30...I'm exhausted I have to get up early tommorrow and go to the mall. I reserved Resident Evil Outbreak, it comes out tommorrow! -dances around with joy- Holy shit, it's just awesome. Anyways off, I go.
-shrug-
I got nathan into go-gaia, he made a character and the whole nine yards. He looks sort of funny though, his character that is, but I'm sure he'll be fine. He already made a couple lady friends on there. hahaha I haven't checked my account there in a few hours(lol)...I'll probably check it out after typing this.
I'm so excited that I'm starting my first day of work on Saturday! It's awesome...It feels like a lifetime since I have gotten any money, I can definetly use some. I haven't been training since the day before sping break started. So I feel all sluggish and what not. Yeah as of Saturday morning I'll be back to training. -tries to make a muscle-Well, looks like I still need to work some more. -frown-
Anywho, that's that.
Anyways...I feel as though we have a lot in common...but of course you shouldn't always go on a relationship with a person, just based on that. She is tall though! Wow, she is even taller than me! I think she said she was 6'0"...I'm like a dwart towards her. Yeah it didn't hurt the fact that she was also wearing high heels.
I decided to take her to the Aerosmith concert with me...I really don't want to give her any ideas though. She's great and all, but I truly don't want to start any relationships quite yet. -shakes fist- Yeah I could use some social time that's for sure. These last few weeks have been grueling. Talk about needing a life. LOL You can only just talk to yourself for so long, without losing your sanity, assuming you didn't already. Boy, has it been an odd few.
-sigh-
Yeah, I'm still working out for my job which starts next week...I called Jeff to see if it's still gonna happen. Looks good from what I see. I'm excited it's been months since my last job as a construction worker...bleh. Yeah speaking of jobs, I've been busier than a bee working with my puppet team. A couple of us from the team have been picking up all sorts of junk for us to sell in a garage sale. This of course will help us earn enough money to go to a trip during the summer.
Yup, that just about sums it up. Tis all for now.
I wonder what Nathan and Kat are gonna do? I know Justin went to Monterrey for God knows what...so I wont see him, that's for sure. Nathan called me the other day to come over, but I couldn't go since I was collecting furniture for the garage sale. As for Kat, -shrugs- don't know what she is doin... none of my business. Things just get better for me down here, I may just move out of state sooner than I was planning. The way things have been, it probably wouldn't hurt. Either ways...
Well, for the rest of you folks (whoever that may be), have a terrific spring break...cause I know I won't! haha!
I've been wanting to go out for the longest time! -tugs at hair- But I find it incredibly hard to do anything with anybody. The worst thing is that I stil have this gooberish concert a week from monday and I stil don't know who to freekin' bring. -sigh- Oh hell.
Christ I'm gonna stop rambling, this is ridiculous.
What happened today...well, technically yesterday? Oh yes, my mother needed to go on a trip with the "chemistry society", and she didn't want to leave her dumb car in pan am. So, I had to skip school that day... just so I can wait till she left and could drive the car home. Thanks a pants full mom!
I had nothing to do at school...well, that's a lie actually. I simply went to the anime club and played a bit of smash brothers on the gamecube. It was fun until someone busted out the Xbox and I got my ass handed to me in Halo. Either way, I was done playing with video games. I later left to go take a nap, which was constantly being disturbed, so I too gave up on that.
Yeah, now when I mention it I had an encounter with Kat. She seemed ok I guess, we didn't talk. Kind of like nod and a 'Hi' and that was about. It was blantanly obvious we were uncomfortable around each other...well, I thought so anyways. I didn't care though, as long as she is happy doin whatever she does, I'm fine with it I guess.
I 'found' this awesome place on the internet, which reminds me of Neopets. I have tried Neopets like twice and both times I quit after like a few hours. But this place is awesome! It's like online RPing with games and what not. You can even make your character look however you like! Very cool if you ask me.
So, yeah I suppose that's all I've got to say...so I'll end here.
I went to work again on Saturday, but no one was there. I called my employer(jeff) and he said we won't start until the 20th. Of course I had to be there a day before to prepare for the first class which would be held on the following day. I'm really exited.
I still haven't asked anybody to go to the Aerosmith concert with me. Just been sort of busy and at the same time I didn't really wanted to go with anyone. I have a couple people in mind, but I felt kind of strange to ask them. This is mainly due to the fact that I don't have too many close friends as of right now, so it's like I'm asking a stranger in a way. Maybe I'll quit being a goober and just ask them...but then again, my word is crap.
Oh yeah the other day I got Budokai 2, for free! Yeah I was talking to a somewhat close friend of mine from church and it was his birthday or something. I dunno I think he got some birthday money and bought the game and then he got the game as a gift. Like a loser he lost the receipt to his game...and well to make a long story short he gave me the damn game. So here I am playing this thing like crazy.
Yeah a couple days ago, I manage to slip over to Nathan's house to say hi and what not. Except he wasn't there, so I just hung out with his little bros., which was fine too. After a few hours Nathan finally game home and then Kenny too! Either way I had to go by that point, said my goodbyes and off I left.
Yeah nothing really spectacular enrique, but your doing things for your self. Either way I'll type soon enough.
I went out to eat and raved about how hungry we are and we talked about your normal bullshit about video games and what not. Then Nathan and I went over his house and played cards and video games for a bit laughing and what not. And like about 4:00 I was gonna leave but for some reason I changed my mind and stayed. I mention that Katya gets home early on Tuesdays and Thursdays, so that Nathan can visit her, but while I was there I suppose we forgot all about it I guess.
Yeah not to long later Sam came over and nathan's evil little brothers. We jumped on the trampoline and played all sorts of dumb games that I came up with. It was great, I even ended up eating dinner there too!
Mom, later call pissed off at me on my cell phone. I checked out the time and it was like 11:30. Whoops! So yeah that sucked I had to drop Sam off home and speed back home. Luckly mom was asleep so I didn't have to hear any of her shananigans. You know how she is.
It had seemed like a life time since I could hand around with some friends of mine like that. It most certainly was long, too long.
Yeah today after I drop Nathan home I have to go and talk to my employer about tommorrow(my first day on the job), so we can plan some things and what not. I'm really excited I need to keep my mind busy on more important things than my typical problems.
That's all I need rave about.
School has been quite a handful...never and I mean never I have been pulling so many hours in school. Not that it's hard or anything, in fact it's rather easy. Just I don't want to make the same mistake again like I did with my dreaded biology class last semester. Yeah I have been doing all sorts of gooberish homework and even extra. I must be really desperate for something. Even mom noticed too...not that I care.
Yeah I have been 'working' out lately since I need to prepare for my job which is gonna start as of Thursday this week...sort of excited yet I don't like the idea of getting my butt handed to me by a bunch of girls. I have been too tired to work out lately. I'll swim like two or three times a week and I'll run a mile...but I never did like doing weights. Either way I don't think I really need to do such a stupid thing(weights that is).
Yeah speaking of jobs...I have been taking Nathan to work for the past month, it's ok, doesn't bother me. He has been working a lot lately...no social life for him. Well, no social life for me either. It seems like I don't have any friends anymore...gee it sucks. I didn't even think about it till now. I have been so busy with school and preparing for my upcoming job, that I haven't had much time for anything else.
Actually that's a lie, just last week, I went to Myth Adventures with Kenneth. When we got there, the tournament that is, the loser people kicked us out! What a bunch of fags! Kenny and I were pissed, so we decided to play cards outside with a couple of wierd kids. Man, one of those little bastard kids wouldn't shut the hell up...Kenny and I gave glances to each other thinking about killing the fucker. Haha.
Either way...that's all that's new with me.
-add on-
Awesome! I just got two tickets for the Aerosmith concert for free! Boy it pays to be nice to certain people. I have a 'friend' of mine who was gonna go with his girlfriend, but because of complications...he had to go out of town with her and he gave me the tickets for free! I offered to buy them off of him, but he insited that I should take them for free. These tickets were expensive too...$125.00. They are like the best seats you can get. I felt bad taking them. He gave me two tickets. I'm sure It won't be too hard to find somebody....
Either way thanks a lot Stephen, I owe you.
Just the whole idea of the break up was bad in itself, but I really felt horrible that this could hinder our relationship as friends. I still love katya dearly, though not like a soulmate, but rather as a close friend. I have compassion towards her cause I feel as though we know each other rather well(i could be wrong). When I visited her the other day, it hurt to see her. I was angry at myself...if anything. I wanted to give her hug you know, but she would probably feel out of place and perhaps outraged.
Out of annoyance I left in hurry, giving an excuse that I had somewere to go...which was true, but in the end I was ditched. As I had left Katya's house she asked if I was leaving. I answered, sure, but I was being a real ass in response. I entered my car and sped off. Damn what a dumb little kid I can be. Poor kat, she doesn't know what the fuck I was thinking and I'm giving her shit.
-sigh-
Dude, I'm suck a dork. I called her earlier today to apologize...I spoke quickly and nervously. I didn't know how to act. I was afraid of reaction, but in the end I really didn't get one. She seemed confused as though I was rambling some gibberish she didn't understand. I did speak to fast, though. Either way, I hope she understood that we can still be friends(good ones at that) for a while to come.
If we can to the point that we can talk to each other about some personal matters...then I will be at ease. Man, the more I type the more I miss her, I suppose I still have some feelings towards no matter how pissed off I was at her before. One step at time.
As it all boils down too, I have decided that I shall push Katya from her 'throne' and take it as my own. I shall bicker, bitch, and care less for the others around me. I well become the hater and the hated. I shall wear black and I shall change my attitude since the one that has left me...has made me into this thing. Or am I to blame. It doesn't matter, because it's everybodies fault not mine! I hate all of you and what all you represent! You made me this way! And I hate it! Fucking hate it!
Yesterday is when I allowed this to affect me. I saw what shouldn't have been seen and I'm crushed. And angry. I cant seem to shake it off and I have become manically depressive. I won't eat I won't sleep for an entire day...maybe that will bring my spirits...anything is better than what I'm going through. Christ, look at you, your fucking rambling like a confused fuck who lost his goddamn marbles! hahaha! It's fun to talk to yourself.
I remember telling myself how I wanted to travel and do all sorts of shit as a younger kid, but now I look back at it and I realize it's all fantasy. Why do 'adults' trick kids into shit they know they can never do. I mean FUCK! Look how FUCKED UP I AM! I just the biggest fucking loser in the whole goddamned world. I hate myself and...*
During the month of July I had gone to a church puppet trip to Colorado. While I was there I was ministering to little kids about the bible and well, you know that kind of stuff. It was really cool beans...I had gone canoeing, rock climbing, rock repelling,...ummm white water rafting, and some other stuff. I enjoyed being surrounded with the nature that God gave us and the animals and all that jazz. After being there for over two weeks I finally returned home.
When August came around it was time to 'get ready for school'...the thing was that I knew that I was suspended from school for a semester. I figured I would get away from it and mom probably wouldn't find out...well, I sure was wrong. Yeah when mom found out the shit really hit the fan and it was all over for me, all over. It took about a couple of weeks for me to get back to my old chipper self, but I was seriously lacking something.
By the end of August the college fall semester started and it nearly puts a tear to my eye. I deserved it, I failed a class and I ain't blamin' no one...nope, not me. Though I have gotten over this recession of mine, something else has come to pass...i realized that it's time for me to change. I realized over the summer that I am quite immature for the things that I do in a day-to-day basis.
Since my suspension I have gotten a job and became deathly serious...well, at least I think so. Not only that, but I realized that the people I used hang out with are not really like me at all. It's like I have gotten some new spiritual awakening, you know? I used to think that I was a decent Christian and all, then I realized what God really wanted with me. He wanted a change.
And the time alone that I have experienced lately has also been encouraging to me in the sence that I think I have finally found what I need to do in life. And that is to change myself 'completely' around...I mean everything. Now, I plan on starting on a new slate, you know? Kind of like restarting my childhood. For instance...I think I may leave Katya.
It's nothing personal...well, actually it is. I still care for her VERY much, but I realized that I am with her for the wrong reasons. I don't want to use Katya, I want to care for her for who she is, you know? It's weird really...I barely started feeling like this. I have a tendency, that I have recently noticed, of just being with people for my own conveince. I love her tons, but I "love" her the wrong way. I feel terrible about it and I think that I don't deserve to go out with her. I plan on talking to her this week about it. I hope she understands.
On a lighter note...I have good health and I am currently out of my depresson and I feel better than ever. I haven't felt so great in...I dunno, months. Either way I'll keep you posted. Take care.
Lets see...I just got a job about a week or so ago and it royally sucks. 40+ hours a week, in the sun, sweating like a fiend...it's not cool. I've already have gotten a sun burn...ohhh what fun.
Just yesterday I got a postcard from my father, who is obviously pissed off at me since I didn't write a letter to him for father's day...that's a whole can of worms in its self.
But what pisses me off the most, is people who don't seem to understand the shit I have to go through and try to relate what I couldn't do to thier goddamn problem. That's right Katya...that means you! What the hell?! I mean, I happen to read your post just for kicks today and I read the atrocious shit that you put. I just can't fathom the fact that you would be so selfish to think that all I have been doing is role playing and watching dvds. If that is how you feel, then maybe you need some time alone.
-bleh-
To hell with this, I'm gone.
Oh yeah check this out, remember how I was grounded for the past millenia and half? Well, I go out to this park with Anime Club and I get home and mom is cool with it...oh yeah one more thing I'm 'done' with school too. So, the following day I go over Katya's house and when I get home mom gives this stupid scream from accross the apartment that I'm not allowed to go out, and this and that and shit in the toilet and this and that and that I'm still grounded too.
Boy mom's can suck big hippo balls man. So yeah I stay home and then I get sick...I'm allergic to mom or something. But either way, I have to get used to her I mean hell, I live wit the damn thing.
Yeah today I found out that I have a good chance to see the new X-men movie with a couple friends of mine on Thursday, so I'm looking forward for that. Yeah well, since I'm under the weather I'll stop there...take care.
Going to something more important(like it matters to who reads this)...school sucks. Surprised? I wouldn't be. Katya and I had a biology test today, but the fact is that we couldn't exactly find time to study for it...this of course is my fault. It's ok I'm use to it...it's always my fault, at least that is how it is always implied. So yeah I probably failed and what not. Enough of this topic...it pisses me off.
This is a complete change in subject, for those who know...wait, let me rephrase that...for those who care, I have been whining about how I want a hair cut. Due to the Passover(easter) weekend...I couldn't get money from any bank so I couldn't get a simple haircut. Though I was finally able to rejoice when I found that the banks were open today. My hair is now very short now...emphasis on short...and I look like goober.
What else, what else...oh yeah I'm still 'grounded'...If I didn't mention it in my last entry then don't worry about...only half the world knows...just ask somebody about it, they'll tell ya.
Well, there ya go folks...for the two(possibly three) of you who actually waste time reading my bog. And if you do read this crap often enough...may God have pity on yer souls...g'nite!
I really don't know what to say really...well, the only "new" thing I have to talk about is the fact that my mom is royally pissed off at me cause I lied to her about going to church. Can't say I blame her, so I'm not really upset about her judgemnt. The thing is that I think she went a little over the line when she grounded me to do anything remotely fun or productive with my friend's and etc. Yeah I'm basically grounded for the next millenia and a half...and for those who don't know how long it is, well...it's too long.
Anyways enough of mom, yeah the other day Katya and I found this possum...jeez what an experience was that. It makes me wonder if Kat still has it all there(jk Kat). We are leaving our Art class, right, and we happen to stumble upon this fat 'ol possum and its baby. Well, the mother 'darts' away and katya picks up the baby. Just like that..she picks it up. What the hell man?! You don't just pick those things up! But anyways...katya gives me this crap about how the poor thing wa all alone and it would probably die out there alone. Anyways...maybe I'm just a jerk. To make a long story short, Katya kept the baby for 5 or so hours until we released it.
I'm getting too gooberish for my own good. Anyways...yeah I haven't done much blogging lately cause I've been busier than a bee at school and at home. Yeah I have to prepare for Diciple Now, this weekend, for those who don't know or if I told you like 20 gazillion times...I'm basically gonna be a counselor for some crazy(I really do mean crazy) junior high boys. Hopefully that will come out ok and I'll come home with all my apendages...God willing.
On a lighter note (just kidding), I'm going to court this comming Monday...:shakes fist: damn department of safety! That's all I have to say about that. If you want details, just ask me, ok?
Well, I really don't want to type anymore cause I have to do a few erans, spend the day with Kat, and of course do final preps...for the dreaded weekend to come. For everyone else I wish you a great weekend. Kat may you have a terrific day, with Love and thanks...Rick
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Yeppers...let's see, oh yeah recently I went to watch the movie "Just Married", it is very cute and funny. For you guys reading this, good movie to take your date or a female friend. Yeah that same day, I think, I was like Kat's chouffer and I brought her to the Myth Adventures and what not. She got some new book on Werewolf the Apocalypse and she is happy about that thingie. We goobered around Pet Land too and saw some nifty gerbils, fishes, and best of all...hamsters!!
Speaking of hamsters, my dumb white hamster, Scuzzy aka:Studpid, was running around in his little excercise ball around the house. Well, he had ran into a wall about several times, I figured he was to stupid to just turn around and run somewere else. On the contrary, the little assclown was doing this, so he can open the little hatch so he could escape. It took nearly 2 hours until I realized that the little fagot had gotten away. Didn't take to long to find him, cause I heard my mom scream something horrible on the other side of the apartment. Friggin' little goober
As sad as it may seem that single incident was probably the highlight of my entire week...I need a life. Well, enough reading this B.S. cause I'm sure you guys got better things to do. Take care everybody cause I'm out of here!
Rick
Yeah I'm leaving on the 2nd to California for a like a week to visit some attractions and what not, so I hope that may be fun. I really wanted to come over somebody's house on New Year' Eve (my favorite holiday, for those who don't know), but last night I got in trouble with ma' and she took my car keys as punishment...boy that suck balls, but oh well. Well what can I expect, right?
Take care everybody and I wish you all a happy New Year and many other new years to come...
Rick
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Anyways other than that I have gotten better I mean I don't feel sick anymore! Like some odd evoulution occured last night before I went to bed and I amazingly got cured. Now all I have is a runny nose and frozen ears due to the cold wind.
So how is everyone else doin? Nathan, ya feeling better? Andy, you still grounded? Katya, still smell like a raton? Answer back guys, that's what the tag board is for! Take care
Rick
I don't know about you characters out there but I had a great Turkey day. We had shrimp and fille minon...really good I must add. Oh yeah raton girl came over and stayed too. I'm sure she had a fun time. Let's see what else, oh yeah you know how the day after Thanksgiving is the best day to buy stuff? Well, I went to the mall and bought Tekken 4! It's preet y coo, I think I have all the secret characters already.
But not a moment too soon I caught a nastey flu, which I still have at this very moment. Yeah being sick really sucks...if you catch my drift. The only good thing about being sick is that I can just sleep on the sofa while mom becomes my servant! Muahahaha!!! But I think mom isn't gonna be doing that anymore.
So yeah I am currently in Pan Am typing this dumb as Katya is doing some scans next to me on an another computer....well, this is boring and I have a headache so I think I shall stop. Take care one and all and I shall post again in the near future.
Enrique
Ever since last week, I have been driving everywere due to the fact I have to get stupid erans done and going to school etc. I mean I'm constantly running out of gas! I'm like running around like a chicken without a head! Yeah it all goest like this: wake up, go to school, go home, go practice stuff at church, go home, go do homework, go do some typical crap with mom, get RAC #, go home, do homework, run around naked, go to school, go home, practice at church, (rambles on). It's simply pathetic, then I have the extras that I have to do...like visit Vince and cut his loser yard. -makes face-
Since this has happened I have had no real time with friends. I barely am able to see Justin and when I do I'm basically working. I see Kat at school and i was lucky to even see Nathan and Andy those couple of times. Just to add onto all my stress as it is...I have to begin studying for all my crappy finals. I have one next week! ACK! -goes into convulsions- I also have to go to the darn Defesive Driver's class or whatever. Dammit! Not cool!
Ok, that's it I jes wanted to get that dumb monkey shit out of my system. Sorry people for my contant complaints and rambling. Hopfully the week will turn out for the better. Don't forget to pray for me!
The infamous Enrique
On Monday, Kat was a bit on the droppy side since she had a crumby weekend...I understand, sorry. She cheered up afterwards and that was all the better. I havn't visited poor Nate this entire week, though I did see him yesterday (Wednesday) at Andy's house. He (Nathan/poopie) was playing Armored Core 2. As for other people, Andy is doin fine...he started some new RPG, but I'm sure every freakin' person already knows about it, so I figure it's pointless to talk about. What else...oh yeah in my puppet ministry group in church, I have to practice to do some live song...you ask me I say it blows. I mean the fact we have to sing, c'mon people it's puppets we're talkin' about not a choir!!
Oh well, what can you do right? Oh yeah, Katya has lent me Final Fantasy 10 and I'm like totally hooked...it's sort of sad really, but it's ok. Yeah I'm think I'm far, I believe I'm nearing the part were you fight Seaymore (is that spelled correctly?). Yeah and my characters are fairly well leveled up. What else...oh yesh I got my RAC # today...well actually no I didn't, nevermind. For those who don't know much on Pan Am, your RAC # is basically your school ID of the semester, you change it every semester so you can sign up for classes. Basically if you don't get one, you don't get classes.
I knu, this seemed to be a rather useless entry since I imagine the few people who read this blog, already know everything in it. Yeah I'm a boring character that I am. OH YESH one more thing...here is my scheduele on blogs and tagboard messages. Since I missed an 'important' tag notification thingie...I shall say when you put a little note on my tag board.
And this is how it shall follow:
TAG BOARD If you wish me to read something put it before 2pm and/or 9pm...these are the times I usually check mah blog.
BLOG As for my blog in general...I shall put in one-two entries a week. Hopfully on Sunday afternoons and Saturdays...so that people don't complain that I don't put blog entries, Katya (jk).
OK guys I have wasted enough of yer time. Bye now!
Ricky
For those who even read my blog, I am quite sure that you all know that Katya, the ratona!, will dress up on that day to school! That is a sight I plan on not missing! Hahaha, I'm rather curious how she will look in a cat-girl outfit...hey maybe I'll bring my cam-corder. Oh well,as sad as this sound I don't think I will talk about this much longer cause it's depressing me some...(I have issues I guess).
Well, take care everyone and I wish you a safe and happy Pagen Holiday! ~Rick
Nothing new has happend to me other that I am going to Temple, Texas to do yet another puppet performance for this coming weekend. Gee what else...ummm...you know what I guess I didn't have very much to say. Such a long time for me to put an entry and yet I still have nothing grand to speak about. Well that just blows goats.
Now that I have stated the obvious it is time fer me to go. Perhaps I won't put another entry for another 8 years. LoL -Enrique
